The difference between you and everyone else is not that you are full of pain and guilt, and everyone else is not. The difference is that you came out in the open, and you destroyed you and your family in the process. You forgot that Hollywood and the media made everyone think about sex 24/7, and this huge overflow of sexual stimulation causes people to attache themselves to all kinds of lusts in addition to the regular lust of a woman (And yeshiva boys don't even have access to women).
So at the end of the day there are many many people suffering because of the Torah, but they keep their mouths shut and they push through life. You should have found a mentor to spill out all the beans, but not to the public. The Satan is laughing all the way to the bank because you have become an official "homo" for no good reason other then guilt! guilt! guilt! And you were having a normal family life. And all you needed was a mentor..... (click Sep 3, 2012)